thoughts-from D: 3/9/2020
seeking guru-ancient days-with samit in hand wandering among caves forests rivers wilderness
modern times-with google in hand[cell] -search websites
control mind with buddhi/vivekam -keep child tied with loong UNBREAKABLE rope/string and
let it go hereever it wants-can always rein in [??]
existence of things-
as perceived by individual minds[human or otherwise] differently-so unreal
different aspects of truth/reality
or
there is no truth
Bhagavad Gita (13:9) :
Indriyaartheshu vairaagyamanahankaara eva cha;
Janmamrityujaraavyaadhi duhkhadoshaanu darshanam.
Indifference to the objects of the senses, also absence of egoism, reflection on the evil in birth, death, old age, sickness and pain (this is declared to be knowledge).
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prescribed duties----gita
material-son/student/employee/parent[g-parent]/citizen....
spiritual-striving for self-realisation
reli-duties of caste
[These obligatory duties vary according to one's level of consciousness. For an ordinary person, acts such as earning wealth, taking care of the family, bathing, eating, etc. are prescribed duties. As one gets elevated, these obligatory duties change. For an elevated soul, sacrifice, charity, and penance are the duties.
People who are situated in sattvic renunciation are not miserable in disagreeable circumstances; nor do they get attached to situations that are agreeable to them. They simply do their duty under all conditions, without feeling elated when the going is good or feeling dejected when life becomes tough. They are not like a dry leaf that is tossed hither and tither by every passing breeze. Instead, they are like the reeds in the sea, gently negotiating every rising and falling wave. While retaining their equanimity and without succumbing to anger, greed, envy, or attachment, they watch the waves of events rising and falling around them. ]
To the people we loved and the people who couldn't love us.
To the ones who broke our hearts and the ones that got away.
To the ones who loved us and the ones who healed us.
To the ones who made us ask important questions and the ones who gave us the answers.
To all the people who once came into our lives and left an impact, left a mark or left a scar.
It does not much signify whom one marries, as one is sure to find next
morning that it is someone else.
Samuel Rogers
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thots 2020
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January 8, 2020
dont search-----experience all
when self goes inside SELF shows itself when earth goes down... sun comes up
sun is shining .....you cant see clouds/mist/but glimpse indirectly sunlight on clouds gradually..gradually clouds disperse ....sun is seen as light on buildings trees ..nature blue sky...white couds ...glowing sky
learn-absorb essence-forget __________________________________OSHO_____________________________
SELF-KNOWLEDGE IS POSSIBLE ONLY IN DEEP ALONENESS.
whatsoever people say about us, we go on collecting. That becomes our self-identity. It is utterly false because nobody else can know you-nobody can know who you are except you, yourself. They know only aspects,and those aspects are very superficial. They know only momentary moods; they cannot penetrate your center. Not even your lover can penetrate to the very core of your being. There you are utterly alone, and only there will you come to know who you are.
Whenever you ask who you are, many answers will come. Some answers will be your mother's, some will be your father's, some will be your teacher's, and so on and so forth. And it is impossible to decide which one is the right answer. How to decide? What is the criterion? This is where man is lost. This is selfignorance.
because you depend on others, you are afraid to go into alone-ness-becausethe moment you start going into aloneness, you start becoming very afraid of losingyourself. You don't have yourself in the first place, but whatever self you have created out of others' opinions will have to be left behind. Hence, it is very scaryto go in. Thedeeper you go, the less you know who you are. So in fact when you aremoving towardself-knowledge, before it happens you will have to drop all ideas about the self. Therewill be a gap; there will be a kind of nothingness. You will become a nonentity. You will be utterly lost because all that you know is no longer relevant, and that which isrelevant you don't know yet.Christian mystics call this "the dark night of the soul." It has to be passed, and once you have passed it, there is the dawn. The sun rises, and one comes to knowoneself for the first time
FIRST:Be Authentic
Truthfulness means authenticity- be true, not false, not use masks. Whatsoever is your real face, show it at whatever the cost. that doesn't mean that you have to unmask others; if they are happy with their lies, it is for them to decide. Don't go and unmask anybody Be truthful toyourself. You are not needed to reform anybody else in the world. If you can grow yourself, that's enough. Don't be a reformer, and don't try to teach others, anddon't try to change others. If you change, that's enoughof a message
To be authentic means to remain true to your ownbeing. How to remain true? Three things have to beremembered. One, never listen to anybody, what theytell you to be. Always listen to your inner voice, whatyou would like to be; otherwise your whole life will bewasted be true to your inner voice. It may leadyou into danger; then go in danger, but remain true to theinner voice. Then there is a possibility that one day youwill come to a state where you can dance with innerfulfillment. Always look: The first thing is your being. Don'tallow others to manipulate and control you-and they aremany; everybody is ready to control you, everybody isready to change you, everybody is ready to give youa direction you have not asked for. Everybody is giving you a guide for your life. The guide exists within you, you carry theblueprint.Always listen to the inner voice, and don't listen to anything else.
To be authentic means to be true to oneself. It is a very, very dangerous phenomenon; rare people can do that. But whenever people do it, they achieve. Theyachieve such beauty, such grace, such contentment that you cannot imagine.
If you are needed, you are valuable. If you are not needed, you don't carry any value.
NEXT Never Wear A Mask.
If you areangry, be angry. It is risky, but don't smile because that is being untrue. You have been taught that when youare angry, smile, but then your smile becomes false, amask--just an exercise of the lips and nothing else. The heart full of anger, poison, and the lips smiling;you become a false phenomenon. Don't wear masks; otherwise you will create dysfunctions, blocks in your mechanism. There are many blocks in your body. A person who has been suppressing anger-his jaw becomes blocked. All the anger comes up to the jaw and then stops there. His hands become ugly; they don't have the graceful movement of a dancer, no, because the anger comes into the fingers and becomes blocked. Remember, anger hastwo outlets for release: one is the teeth, another is the fingers.
wherever anger is suppressed too much, people have teeth trouble. Their teeth go wrong because too much energy is there and never released. And anybody who suppresses anger will eat more-angry people will always eat more because the teeth need some exercise. If you suppress anything, there is some corresponding part in the body to the emotion. If you don't want to cry, your eyes will lose their luster because tears are needed; they are a very alive phenomenon. When once in a while you weep and cry- really you go into it, youbecome it, and tears start flowing from your eyes-your eyes are cleansed, your eyesbecome fresh again, young and virgin. That's why women have more beautiful eyes-because they can still cry. Men have lost the beauty of their eyes because they have a wrong notion that men should not cry. If a small boy cries, even the parents say, "What are you doing? Are you being a sissy?" What nonsense! Because God has given you-man and woman-the same tear glands. If man were not meant to weep, there would have been no tear glands. Simple mathematics. Why do the tear glands exist in men in the same proportion as they exist in women? Eyes need weeping and crying, and it is really beautiful if you can cry and weep wholeheartedly. Remember, if you cannot cry and weep wholeheartedly, you cannot laugh, either, because that is the other polarity. People who can laugh can also cry; people who cannot cry cannot laugh
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Third : Always remain in the present
because all falseness enters eitherfrom the past or from the future. That which has passedhas passed. Don't bother about it and don't carry it as aburden; otherwise, it will not allow you to beauthentic to the present.
Don't unnecessarily be bothered about the future, otherwise that will come into the present and destroy it. Be true to the present, and then you will be authentic. To be here now is to be authentic. No past, no future- this moment, all.
Even when you are sitting alone and there is nobody, and there is no need to pretend, you go on pretending; it has becomesecond nature. People are not true even in theirbathrooms; even when they are utterly alone, theyare untrue. Now it is not a question of being true oruntrue; it has just become their habit
Just be whatsoever you are-one moment you are sad, sothat moment you are sad. And nextmoment if youbecome happy, there is no need now to continue toremain sadbecause that, too, has been taught: to always be consistent, to remain consistent.
Each moment has its own way of being, and you have to be that, in that moment, nothing else. This is what is really meant by Truth.
The true man has no ideals. He lives moment to moment; he always lives as he feels in the moment. He is utterly respectful toward his feelings, his emotions, his moods. And this is what I want people to be: authentic, true, sincere, respectful toward their own soul.
Always listen to your own feelings, there is no need to look Around. Don't look at others, look at yourself. And let what is inside of you come out, whatsoever the risk. There is no greater risk than suppression. If you suppress, you will lose all zest for life, all enthusiasm. You will lose all life if you go on suppressing. It is toxic; it poisons the being.
Listen to the heart, and whatsoever is there, bring it out. Soon you will become efficient in bringing it out, and you will enjoy it. And once you know how to be true, it is so beautiful that you will never settle for being false
Trust is possible only if first you trust in yourself. The most fundamental thing has to happen within you first. If you trust in yourself, you can trust in me, you can trust in people, you can trust in existence. But if you don't trust in yourself, then no other trust is ever Possible
A man trusting himself is an independent man. You cannot makepredictions about him, he will move in his own way. Freedom will be his life. He will trustwhen he feels, when he loves, and then his trust will have a tremendous intensity and truth init. Then his trust will be alive and authentic. And he will be ready to risk all for his trust- but only when he feels it, only when it is true, only when it stirs his heart, only when it stirs his intelligence and his love. Otherwise not. You cannot force him into any kind of believing.
Once you are incapable of loving yourself, you will never be able to love anybody. That is an absolute truth, there are no exceptions to it. You can love others only if you are able to love yourself. But society condemns self-love. It says it is selfishness, it says it is narcissistic. Yes, self-love can become narcissistic, but it is not necessarily so. It can become narcissistic if it never moves beyond itself, it can become a kind of selfishness if it becomes confined to oneself. Otherwise, self-love is the beginning of all other loves.
A person who loves himself sooner or later starts overflowing with love. A person who
trusts himself cannot distrust anybody, even those who are going to deceive him, even those
who have already deceived him. Yes, he cannot even distrust them because now he knows
trust is far more valuable than anything else.
If a person really trusts you, it is impossible to cheathim, almost impossible.It happens every day in your life, too. Whenever youtrust somebody, it becomes impossible for him to cheat you, to deceive you.
There is an intrinsic quality in human consciousness to trust and to be trusted.
Everybody enjoys being trusted. It is respect from the other person-and when you trust a stranger it is more so. There is no reason to trust him, and still you trust him. You raise the man to such a high pedestal, you value the man so much, it is almost impossible for him to fall from that height. And if he falls, he will never be able to forgive himself, he will have to carry the weight of guilt his whole life. A man who trusts himself comes to know the beauty of it-comes to know that the more you trust yourself, the more you bloom; the more you are in a state of let-go and
settled and serene, the more you are calm, cool, and quiet. And it is so beautiful that you start trusting more and more people because the more you trust, the more your calmness deepens; your coolness goes deeper and deeper to the very core of your being. And the more you trust, the more you soar high. A man who can trust will sooner or later know the logic of trust. And then one day he is bound to try to trust the unknown. Start trusting yourself-that is the fundamental lesson, the first lesson. Start loving yourself. If you don't love yourself, who else is going to love you? But remember, if you only love yourself, your love will be very poor. A great Jewish mystic, Hillel, has said, "If you are not for yourself, who is going to be for you?" And also, "If you are only for yourself, then what meaning can your life ever have?"-a tremendously significant statement. Remember it: Love yourself because if you don't love yourself, nobody else will ever be able to love you. You cannot love a person who hates himself. And on this unfortunate earth, almost everybody hates himself, everybody condemns himself. How can you love a person who is condemnatory toward himself? He will not believe you. He cannot love himself-how can you dare? He cannot love himself-how can you love him? He will suspect some game, some trick, some trip. He will suspect that you are trying to deceive him in the name of love. He will be very cautious, alert, and his suspicion will poison your being. If you love a person who hates himself, you are trying to destroy his concept about himself. And nobody easily drops his concept about himself; that is his
identity. He will fight with you, he will prove to you that he is right and you are wrong. That's what is happening in every love relationship- let me call it every so-called love relationship. It is happening between every husband and wife, every lover and beloved, every man and every woman. How can you destroy the other's concept about himself? That is his identity, that is his ego, that's how he knows himself. If you take it away, he will not know who he is. It is too risky; he cannot drop his concept so easily. He will prove to you that he is not worth loving; he is only worth hating. And the same is the case with you. You also hate yourself; you cannot allow anybody else to love you. Whenever somebody comes with loving energy around you, you shrink, you want to escape, you are afraid. You know perfectly well that you are unworthy of love, you know that only on the surface do you look so good, so beautiful; deep down you are ugly. And if you allow this person to love you, sooner or later-and it will be sooner rather than later-he will come to know who you are in reality. How long will you be able to pretend with a person with whom you have to live in love? You can pretend in the marketplace, you can pretend in the Lions Club and the Rotary Club-smiles, all smiles. You can do beautiful acting and role-playing. But if you live with a woman or a man for twenty-four hours a day, then it is tiring to go on smiling and smiling and smiling. Then the smile tires you because it is phony. It is just an exercise of the lips, and the lips become tired.
January 10, 2020
dreamt of ----- [dreams ]
How can you go on being sweet? Your bitterness will surface. Hence, by the time the honeymoon is over, everything is over. Both have known each other's reality, both have known each other's phoniness, both have known each other's falsity. One is afraid to become intimate. To be intimate means you will have to put aside the role. And you know who you are: worthless, just dirt; that's what you have been told from the very beginning. Your parents, your teachers, your priests, your politicians-all have been telling you that you are dirt, worthless. Nobody has ever accepted you. Nobody has given you the feeling that you are loved and respected, that you are needed-that this existence will miss you, that without you this existence will not be the same, that without you there will be a hole. Without you this universe will lose some poetry, some beauty: A song will be missed, a note will be missed, there will be a gap-nobody has told you that. And that's what my work here is: to destroy the distrust that has been created in you about yourself, to destroy all condemnation that has been imposed on you, to take it away from you and to give you a feeling that you are loved and respected, loved by existence. God has created you because he loved you. He loved you so much that he could not resist the temptation to create you
January 11, 2020
karma and dna----murder vicitim in some life--becomes a murderer in some life-appropriate dna implanted in sich case./dna for victim and dna for murderer
Brains are built from the blueprints encoded in our DNA, a fact which is leading the newest research to seek out specific genes that predispose people toward antisocial-even "evil"-behavior.